the weekend.. UGH!

(i always walk 10 (or so) then do my allotted jog time for the week. )
so for the week i jogged as follows:
mon. 4
tues. none
wed. 10
thur. 5
frid. 2
oh well!! this week starts my 5 min. jogs.. and i hope w/ last weeks numbers i'm ready!! :o)

and i've eaten the following. not necessarily in this order.. but go w/ me!
cereal..granola..movie popcorn...peanut buster parfait....stacked enchiladas..brownies w/ ice cream...hamburger/fries....and WHO knows what else!
have a great week!!

where I'M at

this week has been a BREEZE w/ out soda. haven't missed it one bit. (and i love it)

it has also been the week for adding a minute to my jog.. 3 minutes now. we missed tuesdays walk... she wasn't feeling well & i was kinda sore. so i took that break but was adamant about doing it today. next week we bump to 5 minute jogs and that kinda worries me. but today we did ALMOST 5 minutes together and i finished my way home for a total of almost 10 minutes! talk about excited me! gives me confidence for next weeks battle! :o)

wish i was still better at food, especially after eating Petes for lunch and then Pizza for dinner on monday!!! ugh... i felt it by bed time and went to bed early w/ a stomach ache! :(

but by jogging--it makes me want to try harder, so i'll go w/ that!

and my happy surprise for the evening... is my first squash from the garden!! steamed it up and shared w/ my mommy & kevo!

Addiction no more...

I'm no longer addicted to these....

but by all means... I DO MISS THEM!!! sometimes more than others (when i'm stressed, or tired, or thirsty). but i move on from that 'want' and tell myself that, HEY.. you don't drink that anymore, move on! i'm not tempted (for the most part) when others drink it and don't feel like i can't be around people that HAVE soda. i did, on the other hand, have a dream that i drank a big soda one day, and felt bad.... but let it go. then the next day i had another (by accident) but was starting to freak out by then.. it was strange to see how i was reacting to the fact that i 'drank soda!' i think i'm over it being a huge part of my life and my ONLY DEPENDENCY! it really is a relief to not rely so much on it for my comfort!

before i'd even start the day, i was at QT or 7-11! and if you really know me, then you know how much i value my drinks!! i miss the habit of going and enjoying my baby... but i don't need it and can obviously survive without it. although i never thought i could. (i'm very proud of myself)

on to other things.. i tried for a couple days to journal my food cz i thought i wasn't too bad! i now see WHY you keep track. i managed to eat cheetos, hershey kisses, too much food at one time and stuff like that. i wasn't very happy w/ that. so... now what???

behind again on updating! i should do better, cause i really want to track what i eat! seems like i don't 'crave' as many things as i used to when i drank diet soda!

i finished both my walking weeks.. missed a day here or there. but that brings me to this week-- which starts jogging! i only start out w/ a 2 minute jog, then each week it bumps up... and it felt SOOO good to jog this morning. i think we did about 3 1/2 minutes and i felt like i could do more!! which of course is good cz next week is 3 min. jog!

ALL I'VE EVER wanted is to run. and i've never given myself the ability to do it. even back in school, i did everything possible just to get out of doing the mile. i always felt like i had 'asthma' and couldn't do it. i always quit.. i remember one time actually tripping myself (scraping my knees) just to get out of the mile! what a loser.
now all i want is to run like a mad man. put the ipod in and go! i now realize that i can't just start running miles (when i never have). and before my foot problem started again, and when i had a gym membership--i was able to do a 10 minute jog! that is IMPOSSIBLE for me, and i did it.

i enjoy watching the biggest loser, and i'm sure i'm not the only one that watches it and says, yeah... i wanna work out!!! (or not be fat, or whatever) i always try to NOT do that, just so i don't quit til next week or something.. haha
but after last night, watching Mikey say that his morning jog is 5 miles... if he can get there (and i'm sure he was worse off then me) then why can't i jog 5 miles!??!
all i need to do is break my ' i always quit, and i'm lazy' cycle.. :0)

let's break it down- - - -

10 minute walk (i'm following a jog log)

life cereal.. 2 big bowls (hehehe)
serranos for lunch - business mtg, but still over ate
granola
easter candy/chocolate, i was desperate cz of my caffeine withdrawal headache!!!
absolutely NO SODA...
and soooo much water I CAN'T BELIEVE IT!

ONE more change!

so.. the whole GYM thing didn't work out..

Kev lost his job (ish) so I cancelled my membership.

I was having a hard time getting there anyway, but I miss it, but kinda glad I don't

have that commitment haunting me!

On to me now... I've gained about 10 pounds, which I rarely do! I know I eat crap all the time, and don't care, eat whenever I want! But as of today (beings I had it yesterday) I'm leaving soda behind! I went soda-free today and it was a complete breeze! I'm crazy shocked... maybe I got lucky. I did take 2 excedrin just to make sure, but I thought I'd need a bottle. Kevin's doing it w/ me and he's mean, so he wont go to quick trip for me! :(

I'm starting my jog-log tomorrow and I've managed to talk a friend in to the torcher w/ me! She said she'd even ditch soda too.. suuuhhhweeet! Talked my sis into too.. She's started and stopped as many times as I have--hopefully it's our last time!

I'll worry about food choices later----kind of let it fall in to place. Figure out what I want exactly and deal w/ lack of soda and walking & jogging.

So, once again...here I am promising big things!

made it to the gym today... but not happy w/ the results :( but AT LEAST i went.

10 on the tread (worried about my feet...feel really tired when i'm walking, hopefully they're adjusting and my problem isn't coming back)

did some circuits... just a few

then did 5 more on the tread.

i was running out of time--went before 7 this morning and knew i needed to get back to get kids up and ready. i'm already sore from 'weights' which surprises me.

2 apples
homemade bread (cinnamon toast)
2 sandwiches (homemade rolls) pb&j and bologna
2 oreos
bbq porkchop, salad, rice
i don't even remember... how sad is that...hopefully that's everything!