THE TIME HAS COME! By current demands (of my husband) just kidding... I must return to the GYM!
Everyday I say I will go back. and then everyday I don't. :(
I keep putting it off saying next week and it hasn't been a priority to me. I want it to be though. I get myself motivated to go & then let 'LIFE' happen and skip it. It has been probably six months or so since I went and I'm scared all over to go. haha.... feels like the first time almost.
But I'm prepared to pay for my slacking off & already have a 'food' game plan. I'm going to go in the morning now (which is kinda new).. so I plan on having a protein shake for breakfast then after the gym for a snack I'll have an apple and maybe a slice of homemade bread w/ P.B. depends on how I feel. I'll try and do a sandwich or something for lunch maybe mac & chz w/ the kids (I'll just be careful and have fruit and such) then dinner will be what we feel like. I know myself (too well) that i can't STRESS over every meal and exactly what I should and shouldn't be eating! I just hope all of this will be good enough.
I'm obsessed w/ my big gulps & I'm hoping that by being at the gym in the morning and not wanting to chug a soda after I work out--- that I can bring it down a notch! Have one maybe later w/ lunch or dinner or something. Who knows where I'll end up at.....(with that) but I'm not going to worry about it! ONE thing at a time! :0)
I'm ready to work it on out but scared of what I will look like after! Not that weighing less is scary, but how my fatness will appear.. haha
