cant believe wednesday is over.. its almost the weekend AGAIN.
today was a much better day than the previous two. had more energy, and everything just went better.
enjoyed my day w/ anissa... (and the babes of course.) we had a shake together for lunch, so that was fun. had a healthy choice pizza for dinner. bleh... it was good, but not what i wanted, but had nothing else. im excited for my lunch tomorrow.. gonna have a salad. ive needed on lately, but hadnt had all the stuff.

just because its healthy.. (or close to) does NOT mean you wont regret eating it later!!!!

ugh... not doing so good-- too many peanut butter oatmeal cookies.
i feel like the past 2 days have been crap. lack of motivation anywhere.. just struggling to get by. having difficulties w/ food and what to eat or make.. and getting things done. i think i'm run down from taking care of other peoples things. i cant do it all.
lets hope for sleep tonight, and that will help w/ the motivation somewhat.

my goal is to simply journal, cz thats the rule.
long weekend.. kevin made me work! :( didnt have any dessert on free day, but enjoyed cinnamon toast & some pizza..
have only done half a workout today... so i gots to get to it.

another day down. didn't eat a lot of food today... and feeling it now. it's 10 at night... and i'm hungry. mis-managed time today and meals were last minute. so i ended up having 2 microwave dinners. one for lunch and the other for dinner before we walked. bleh!! one every now & then isn't so bad BUT to have it twice back to back is just not tasty! but i left my self no choice. OH WELL!
snacked on grapes & a few pistachios. me & kevin walked tonight. been a while since we did that. and it was kinda fun! no clue whats in store for tomorrow but i hope its better. thanks.

today seemed easy. probably bcz i had so much LESS to deal with, and i actually enjoyed that! ha made some progress on the house chores (which have been neglected all week) and got cell phone stuff taken care of.
had subway for dinner 2nite. the kids LOVE it, and its pretty much the only thing i can have if we eat out. it'd take me forever to figure out meals if we went some where else.
week 6 is almost behind me!

okay.. so this week is proving to still be BUSY! holy cow... i cannot catch a break!
good thing i would NEVER stress eat. (well, not now anyway... i cant)
we now have 4 chickens laying eggs, which is really fun and exciting. guess i'll be eating eggs.. :)
the only snacks i had today was grapes. other than my meals which were cereal/banana then mini pizzas and foil dinners for din! those were so good and i like having food!
spent hours (literally) out back tearing up the garden. took it down to nothing. good thing the weather is turning a little cooler cause it wasnt so bad out. i'm pretty sure my butt NEVER saw the couch today.. had jania's girls, and tashina was here to babysit while i went to teacher conference. took the the kids to game crazy then made dinner and played outside with them.

rabbit is good... rabbit is wise!

ho hum... just another day.
nothing new going on. did the same things, pretty much ate the same things too.
cereal & banana.. healthy choice for lunch and a protein bar, cz i was hungry and stressed. then i didnt have a thing til my juicy juice.. then had breakfast for dinner. eggs, cz we needed to use the ones we had. then hashbrowns (mostly for the fam) then regular pancakes for the kids and i had whole wheat pancakes. (thanks Niss for the recipe) surprisingly, i actually really liked them. and i'd like to have them again sometime. :o)

ahh... the weekend is over. i'm glad to be on track again for the week. i do, however, find myself missing my lazy life---where i did nothing and accomplished nothing. :(
here's what i ate yesterday (my FREE day... and why i suck)

*graham crackers & milk
*bowl of raisin bran
*small slice of pizza (had to try it.. it was DiGornio)
*grapes (only good thing that came out of my day)
*potatoes & meat w/ creamed peas
*3 slices of cinnamon toast on home made bread
*brownies & ice cream .. maybe a 2nd helping--not sure.

i just kept eating.. i wasnt EVEN HUNGRY. but i honestly felt like .. HEY, this is my free day i want to eat things. and my stomach is still trying to readjust from it.

on the good side of things, i did find my way to the 180's! i expect it to go back and forth around the 190's till it drops a little farther down. (i always pop up & down a pound or two)
and on my free day i did drink ONLY water, took my vitamins. and i hit my 5 month mark of NO SODA.

journaled on paper last night.. the computer was occupied. the past 2 days have been ridiculously busy & strange. just so full of things to be done.. and very challenged to follow a regime! (very challenging)
i don't ever eat things i shouldn't ... but sometimes it becomes difficult to accomplish the 'list'.
it seems so much easier to just let things go... or take a point. but i'm not willing to give up a point for it.
i don't know where my weight will end up this week, with such differences in eating. AND having different things. hopefully its not in a wrong direction.

glad to be feeling better than yesterday. I'm pretty sure I need to EAT dinner tonight.. and not just another protein shake. I LOVE having them and i know its okay to have them.. but not constantly for dinner. maybe breakfast or lunch.
the days seem to go by fast & i don't really miss things too much.
I miss walking with Kevin in the evenings. but with mom not here (or chuck) I don't have a kid watcher. :(
I walked Leuscher bright and early this morning..and of course HE was a pain. Boo even decided to join in and ride his scooter.

well, today i did my new workout dvd again.. and HOLY COW! i'm exhausted. i felt so good after i did it yesterday i thought it could be an everyday thing. but b4 i started today, i was already feeling the muscle fatigue! so by the time i was finished today, i could hardly move. but in the same sense, i felt great & loved doing it. again, i was sweating like a pig and the kids pointed that out.
i feel really sick right now.. and i'm not sure why. maybe the protein shake wasnt enough of a dinner after my hard workout. i might just be exhausted, or hungry, or tired.. or all of them. i'm definitely going to bed now!

cereal & oj
salad (the usual.. w/ rotisserie)
a few cheezits... i needed food--wasnt home--knew i wouldnt be.
protein shake w/ the usuals.
ate some saltines just now to take w/ my excedrin.
hey NISS.... give me a heads up on the food things i've been doing. guess i've been tracking those everyday. :P

scramble 2 eggs this morning (our OWN eggs) and added some peppers, ham & gr. onions. it was really good. i enjoyed some 100% OJ too.
lunch was a salad with rotisserie chicken, peppers, carrots, croutons & dressing.
i bought a new workout DVD. and I'll do that soon. i hope its good.
don't know whats for dinner, but maybe I'll just have a protein shake and add my fruit.
i feel good & keep hoping to see MORE & MORE results.

it's Monday. I'm pressed for time. lost 2 lbs. free day was better. i had some cake w the icing scraped off (don't like it anyway) and no ice cream. but later i had a skinny cow ice cream sandwich.
had my bagel w/ pb&j. lunch was a micro meal. snack was a cut up pear w/ cottage chz. (oh.. one of my faves!) we had subway for dinner .. only had a 6" this time and ate grapes later.
walked with mom and lifted some weights.
goal for the week is to continue reading b of m to the kids.. per their request!! it becomes a win/win situation!!

well, today completes 4 weeks of the challenge. ( i think)

technically by day isn't over yet.. so i guess its not complete yet.

enjoyed going out to dinner tonight. went to texas roadhouse. i had a very yummy sirloin w/ a house salad & a sweet potato. it was so good!!!

tomorrow is free day & my goal (even tho i don't need one) is to stay low on the GARBAGE!

treat myself a little then

STEP AWAY FROM THE BROWNIES.

short & sweet! i landscaped ( haha) my sisters backyard.. she NEVER goes back there so that was a fun workout. jumped on the tramp w/ kids in the nice weather.

ate grapes & grapes today. had mini pizzas and my fruitfied vegified protein shake for din din.

i'm exhausted and ready for bed!!

well, i'm definitely ready for bed! walked this morning w/ my mom at 6 and have been going ever since.
grilled chops for dinner w/ some corn cob AND grapes.. :o)
had a wh.wh. bagel w/ pb& sf jam w/ milk for breakfast
ate tons of grapes.
had a salad for lunch with ham, eggs,peppers,onions,carrots ranch. not good.. :( makes it hard to eat, thats for sure!!
juiced for my snack --- ( apple, pear,carrots,blueberry,strawberry) .
ate more grapes. no wonder i have a stomach ache!!!

i've really tried to concentrate on having ONE serving of bread. and i'm doing good so far. i think the only bread i've had is bagels for breakfast. maybe that can be my goal for next week. try and do NO BREAD. (since i have a problem w/ it...)

where does the time go?? its almost Thursday!!

b-- was cereal
*no snacks*
l-- DeLiCiOuS salad.. added shredded pork from last nite, red peppers, onion, carrots. w/ homemade ranch (pkt, skim milk,low fat mayo)
*grapes*
* little air popped popcorn w/ spray butter & salt*
d-- protein shake..added my f&v for the day. strawberries, blueberries, carrots, spinach, pear.

i love feeling so much better on a daily basis. unfortunately I've really watched my weight fluctuate this week. (which is EXACTLY why one shouldn't weigh themselves.) i stayed the same weight for almost a week, then jumped UP 2 pounds.. then watched it drop back DOWN 3 pounds.. so strange.
i did advanced pilates today. (40 min) then after scouts played football (or catch) w/ Kevin. its been nice at night.. cant WAIT for it to get even cooler. maybe I'll even walk in the morning w/ my mom!

tuesday, tuesday.

life is good. feel better today than i did yesterday. went walking w/ kevin again. thanks thanks thanks to chuck for watching the kids. i REALLY need to do a video tomorrow tho.. to get some muscles goin'!

tonight for dinner we had cob corn & bbq pork (in the croc). it was SOO yummy.

the weekend has passed.... AND I'M GLAD! i do much better when i'm limited to certain things i can OR can't do. i like being able to see what i can HAVE as opposed to just living it up.
i guess i didn't do bad on my free day.. but i see how lazy i am when i don't have my LIST of items to accomplish. i like knowing things (its part of my semi-OCD!) i don't like guessing & figuring things out. i just wanna know.
i did eat brownies & ice cream for dessert and then had more brownies later.. (oopsies!)

my new personal goal for the week is reading the B of M to the kids. only its the scripture reader, that has pictures and breaks it down. (makes it easier for me to understand too!)

Monday is over- - - - here's to the week.

what i accomplished today!

i did things today that i had NOT planned. but also did things i needed to do to complete my day.

1.totally (TOTALLY) cleaned the car out.

2.walked 3 miles w/ my kevy.

3.played baseball (or catch)w/ brendon in nice weather..man that kid can THROW!

4.mowed the back yard & edged it.

even though i did the dishes .. i still feel like the house was neglected. but oh well, cz it was a good day & i LoVeD every minute of it. wish i could do it again tomorrow and the next day.

i love my life!

its late.. and I'm tired. today was a perfect 10. i did 35 minutes of KENPO....then got interrupted by Raegan.. but i played baseball-ish w/ brendon later on in the evening.
i still need to clean out the ol' fridge to earn my extra point. and the house needs cleaned. I'm always behind!!!
its 10:30 and i still to read ... so I'm off.

I've kind of gotten out of the habit of journaling in the morning. I don't like putting things off til night time, but it seems fitting to journal at the end of my day. I'm doing well still, learning new things everyday. I've said it before and I'll say it again.. I wish I was dramatically DROPPING pounds, but I'm not giving up and feel good.
my breakfasts are usually shredded wheat w/ a banana.. snacks range from jerky, to crackers, or popcorn.. sometimes toast or granola (now i know why I'm fat)
lunch is usually a healthy choice, or salad.. or leftovers. dinners are sometimes a H.C. or soup I've made or a protein shake. Tonight I made a healthy meatloaf...pureed squash, onions, carrots & spinach & mixed it in. We had cob corn on the side. (w/spray butter of course) Brendon said the meatloaf tasted funny, but we liked it a lot. I could actually taste the carrot a little... but not enough to dis-like it.
tomorrow's Friday... then comes a long weekend of hopefully sleeping in!! (no school Monday)
AND... if i clean out my refrigerator I earn a free point on Monday. brownies??....anyone???

(this was from the weekend... his face CRACKS me up. )

everything is going well. i'm learning that exercising is getting hard for me. not the exercises.. per say.. but the effort and time to do it. i want to walk MILES with kevin, but that only happens rarely.. and i waste time during the day (when i could do my video) hoping we can walk later.
that set up seems to not be working well. as Dr. Phil would say... " and how is that working for ya?" the answer would be NOT GOOD.
HOWEVER... i LOVE the challenge. its interesting to see what i miss & don't miss. i think every day is different too. sometimes i miss french fries... other times its chocolate.. sometimes i just want some TANG!!!

feeling much better today than yesterday. i feel much more rested!!! trying to re-think my meals and the snacks i've been having.. or DID have over the weekend. i also know i need to step up my game on workouts. i keep taking the easy way out (still doing 45 minutes) but i know that thats not helping me lose weight.

i'll still take my perfect scores i'm getting, but would like to do so w/ a drop in weight!