made it to the gym today... but not happy w/ the results :( but AT LEAST i went.

10 on the tread (worried about my feet...feel really tired when i'm walking, hopefully they're adjusting and my problem isn't coming back)

did some circuits... just a few

then did 5 more on the tread.

i was running out of time--went before 7 this morning and knew i needed to get back to get kids up and ready. i'm already sore from 'weights' which surprises me.

2 apples
homemade bread (cinnamon toast)
2 sandwiches (homemade rolls) pb&j and bologna
2 oreos
bbq porkchop, salad, rice
i don't even remember... how sad is that...hopefully that's everything!

I MADE IT TO THE GYM!! wooooot!!!

30 minute (fast) walk w/ a 6 minute jog in there.. VERY happy w/ that considering I haven't been to the gym in 7 (yes SEVEN) months.

I didn't do anything else (kinda quit) but I'm already motivated to go back! I thought it would take a while, but I'M READY NOW!!!

protein shake
apple
grilled chz on homemade bread
raspberry w/ white choc. scones.. (oopsies)
2 pieces of cinnamon toast (homemade bread)
banana w/ peanut butter (best thing EVER)
burger king (double oopsies)
apple
oh... and a double big gulp for my BIRTHDAY!!! :0)

DON'T LOOK!

What good is a weight loss journal if I don't have before pictures! Now keep in mind.. this is even after I've already lost 20 POUNDS!! (how fat did I look before!! )

My fellow Americans....

THE TIME HAS COME! By current demands (of my husband) just kidding... I must return to the GYM!

Everyday I say I will go back. and then everyday I don't. :(

I keep putting it off saying next week and it hasn't been a priority to me. I want it to be though. I get myself motivated to go & then let 'LIFE' happen and skip it. It has been probably six months or so since I went and I'm scared all over to go. haha.... feels like the first time almost.

But I'm prepared to pay for my slacking off & already have a 'food' game plan. I'm going to go in the morning now (which is kinda new).. so I plan on having a protein shake for breakfast then after the gym for a snack I'll have an apple and maybe a slice of homemade bread w/ P.B. depends on how I feel. I'll try and do a sandwich or something for lunch maybe mac & chz w/ the kids (I'll just be careful and have fruit and such) then dinner will be what we feel like. I know myself (too well) that i can't STRESS over every meal and exactly what I should and shouldn't be eating! I just hope all of this will be good enough.

I'm obsessed w/ my big gulps & I'm hoping that by being at the gym in the morning and not wanting to chug a soda after I work out--- that I can bring it down a notch! Have one maybe later w/ lunch or dinner or something. Who knows where I'll end up at.....(with that) but I'm not going to worry about it! ONE thing at a time! :0)

I'm ready to work it on out but scared of what I will look like after! Not that weighing less is scary, but how my fatness will appear.. haha

AUGUST 20TH???

that was the last time i did ANYTHING???? ate right, exercised, blogged???

yikes...anissa why haven't you yelled at me???

well, I finally got my orthodics today...and after only wearing them (they stay in my gym shoes) for an hour, my feet were achey!! which is exactly why the DR. told me I have to break them in. let my feet get used to them.. :)

but hopefully I can start next week going to the gym..which means I have to eat better! (otherwise, what's the point)

I know I didn't have to STOP going to the gym just cz my foot hurt, but maybe I liked the excuse. now that I'm going back, I can't use the treadmill for about 2 months, so I'll have to just do my circuit training & possibly a bike (whatever) till my planters fasciitis heals!!

Then I'm excited for that day, cz then I can pick up jogging again.. I was just getting good (or better than b4)then my foot started to hurt.

these orthodics should fix all that, and now my possibilities should be endless.

maybe eventually I CAN do some kind of small marathon w/ DAVE...(my best friend)

**on a better note, after not doing anything I gained like 2 or 3 pounds (I was shocked that was all)--but I did weigh myself today an I was where I left off.. 174.8! I'LL TAKE IT!

Well, I made it to the gym yesterday, and I am going tomorrow as well. Friday is still up in the air, cz we're heading out of town. Kevin took the day off, and so I'll just have Brendon stay home too. Need to take advantage of going.. but also would like to enjoy them at home!

Yesterday at the gym was GREAT!! I can't believe I actually finished my routines, cz as I got there, I was STILL DRAGGING MY FEET! I think it's cz I had so many days off last week, and I was afraid to find out if it was permanent or just my PMS fluke!

I did my warm up, 2 rounds of circuit, wall squats, jumping boxes, then cardio... I even pulled a 6 minute (4 speed) jog out of my magical hat!! NO clue where that came from, but it was awsome! I think it's safe to say that it was INDEED a fluke! Felt like my hamburger from the night b4 was jogging right off. I hope, hope, hope I can do it again.. I won't push myself to go more, cz then I'll just quit! (i'm so wierd) But I definitely wouldn't mind throwing a 5 min. jog in there everyday. Don't know how much good it would actually do, but atleast it changes it up a bit!

Let's try this week again!!!

Well, last week totally sucked!! I only made it to the gym 2 times and they weren't even good workouts, or worth my time... Hopefully it was "you know...." and now that THAT IS OVER... I can move on and pick right back up! I did happen to weigh my self yesterday-- I know.. it was sunday, not even weigh day, and I'm not supposed to weigh myself.. but it did say 174.8!! Yes, the low 170's!!

I'm pretty sure it only read that number for ONE REASON!! to keep my motivation up! Cause had it read something higher... (especially after last week) I really would have probably given up and such.

So thank goodness it stayed low, and I can keep some motivation up!

Now this week.... keep up some semi good eating (or close to it)--- and go to the FREAKIN' GYM!!