Wednesday.. and some Thursday

my calorie in take for the day(wednesday) was 2,097 I didn't complete an official workout.. but everything I do counts... so I logged it!

Cleaning the house, pulling grass out of the garden (w/ literally sweat dripping off my face!)

It's a cheap shot for a 'workout' but oh well. It is what it is.. and I am what I am.

I stay away (completely) from any sweets or treats! I thought it'd be hard & it was for a few days.. and I thought for sure I'd be looking forward to Sunday..my free day... but I don't seem to think about it too much. But that doesnt mean I wont later.. or tomorrow!

I officially hit my 2 month mark of no SODA! Holy cow I never thought that would happen. Wish I would have lost a little weight from that.. just to prove a point!

So here's to another day!

Todays attempt at working out.. was just that! AN ATTEMPT. I waited too long after I ate to workout.. so I was famished and had the beginning of a headache. Now had I been doing weights or something -- I might have survived it. But I knew I was NOT going to be able to finish cardio X on an empty stomach. (or at least the way I was feeling.. )
I'm pretty sure I need to add more calories to my diet-- probably why I felt the way I did. I wish I could keep track of my food on this page, but I already add it to calorie count. com and I don't feel like adding it twice!!
But I DID have cheese enchiladas for dinner tonight! Who says you can't watch what you're eating and have good food!!!! I only had ONE serving and I was very satisfied.. (crazy) but was starving once again.. like an hour later! I CaNnOt figure that one out! I feel pretty healthy (on the inside) no more of those.. ugh.. or blah feelings from eating crap all the time. I LOVE eating fruit all the time. I just wish I could eat veggies the same way. I can only do those cooked!
My calorie intake for the day was 1,686.

I've managed to count calories all weekend.. and even enjoyed (too much) my free day on sunday. I limit all that I eat, so mostly healthy things that I can keep track of calorie wise.

I'll try and figure a way to jot down what I eat, but I keep track on caloriecount.com. and it's every little detail! Down to butter, or how many turkey slices and EVERYTHING! So here are my calorie counts for the weekend.

Friday--2438
Saturday--1893
Sunday--2336 (this was even including an ice cream sandwich, 2 diff types of cookies & ice cream!) haha.. told you i went over board!!! But it pays to eat fruit & limit myself to other things!

I'm not sure where my calorie limit is.. it should be 1400... but there is NO WAY I can consume only that and survive P90X workouts! So we'll see where I end up.

And I did update my weight on the side...and I was dreading doing that.. been putting it off, cz it went up. (way up) but I need to be honest w/ my hobbit self!

So--rock it out... and here I go!

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monday evening---LETS ADD MONDAYS TOTAL... a calorie count of 1597. i'm kinda hungry right now (its 10.. but i'm letting my fat enjoy itself.. so no food for me)

i completed (w/ some breaks of course.. i'm new) chest & back from X and ab ripper X.

I suck!

must we try this one more time!
again.. trying to have myself eat better & exercise! why is this an endless battle for me?
EVERYDAY I:

• hate how much i weigh
• hate that clothes don't fit or have none to wear
• don't like being envious of others 'weight'
• get tired of wishing i was something different
• don't like the category 'well..you've had kids'
• hate apologizing to kevin that i'm not 'FIT'

so how on earth can every day i SIT here and not change anything. ????

it cant honestly be THAT hard... i'm just lazy & choose to be so!

i honestly enjoy eating 'healthy' foods, just choose to not swear by it. probably where my problem lies! so, once again..i'm embarking on a battle of my will-- i hate this part!

editors note: i completed P90X (the cardio x)

the weekend.. UGH!

(i always walk 10 (or so) then do my allotted jog time for the week. )
so for the week i jogged as follows:
mon. 4
tues. none
wed. 10
thur. 5
frid. 2
oh well!! this week starts my 5 min. jogs.. and i hope w/ last weeks numbers i'm ready!! :o)

and i've eaten the following. not necessarily in this order.. but go w/ me!
cereal..granola..movie popcorn...peanut buster parfait....stacked enchiladas..brownies w/ ice cream...hamburger/fries....and WHO knows what else!
have a great week!!

where I'M at

this week has been a BREEZE w/ out soda. haven't missed it one bit. (and i love it)

it has also been the week for adding a minute to my jog.. 3 minutes now. we missed tuesdays walk... she wasn't feeling well & i was kinda sore. so i took that break but was adamant about doing it today. next week we bump to 5 minute jogs and that kinda worries me. but today we did ALMOST 5 minutes together and i finished my way home for a total of almost 10 minutes! talk about excited me! gives me confidence for next weeks battle! :o)

wish i was still better at food, especially after eating Petes for lunch and then Pizza for dinner on monday!!! ugh... i felt it by bed time and went to bed early w/ a stomach ache! :(

but by jogging--it makes me want to try harder, so i'll go w/ that!

and my happy surprise for the evening... is my first squash from the garden!! steamed it up and shared w/ my mommy & kevo!

Addiction no more...

I'm no longer addicted to these....

but by all means... I DO MISS THEM!!! sometimes more than others (when i'm stressed, or tired, or thirsty). but i move on from that 'want' and tell myself that, HEY.. you don't drink that anymore, move on! i'm not tempted (for the most part) when others drink it and don't feel like i can't be around people that HAVE soda. i did, on the other hand, have a dream that i drank a big soda one day, and felt bad.... but let it go. then the next day i had another (by accident) but was starting to freak out by then.. it was strange to see how i was reacting to the fact that i 'drank soda!' i think i'm over it being a huge part of my life and my ONLY DEPENDENCY! it really is a relief to not rely so much on it for my comfort!

before i'd even start the day, i was at QT or 7-11! and if you really know me, then you know how much i value my drinks!! i miss the habit of going and enjoying my baby... but i don't need it and can obviously survive without it. although i never thought i could. (i'm very proud of myself)

on to other things.. i tried for a couple days to journal my food cz i thought i wasn't too bad! i now see WHY you keep track. i managed to eat cheetos, hershey kisses, too much food at one time and stuff like that. i wasn't very happy w/ that. so... now what???